Sunday, January 13, 2013

13/30 Things: Weaknesses

Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

(To get caught up on 30 Things and know what it is all about start here.)
My inspiration for this set of posts comes from a great blog called Hopes & Dreams, you should really check her out.


I don’t confront conflict as I should.

I tend to bury the things that bother me inside. I don’t confront what is causing me to be upset, I don’t deal with it because I don’t want to cause conflict or hurt others feelings.  This then leads to it all bottling up inside and I tend to begin acting out with passive aggression, which is rude of me and unnecessary.  I need to learn to address issues as they arise with out the fear of upsetting others, because keeping it to my self just causes too much stress & unhappiness.

I don’t know how to say no.

I feel so bad when people ask me to help, pick up shift, or do something for them that I rarely say no.  On the rare occasion that I do, I always feel guilty after wards.  This is especially true with work, I almost never turn down a shift even if I really don’t want to go, had plans already or even when I don’t get along with the client all that well.  I still say yes because I feel bad to say no.  I do need to work on this because I get over worked, and burned out.  I need to work on having time to my self for my own hobbies and interests so that work and others don’t take up all of me.

I don’t properly express myself.

Part of this relates to the first one, as I like to avoid conflict but it is deeper than that.  I expect others around me to be mind readers and know what I am thinking and feeling so that I don’t have to figure it out myself.  I don’t like having to explain what I am feeling or why I am feeling that way.  I think it part it is because I don’t want to look that deep and find out, but also I am just not good with words.  I never seem to find the right combination of them to appropriately express myself.  At least not at the time that I need too, hours later when I am laying in bed I am very eloquent but while on the spot I am a rambling fool.

I have a hard time not taking out my grumpiness on others.

I tend to be overly stressed with work and when I come home I forget to leave it at the door.  I bring my stress and irritability from work back to the house where it spills over on to those who don’t deserve it and didn’t cause it.  It tends to have me already on edge so the then the tiny little things that are really not a big deal push me over the ends and I react far more harshly than I should.

I have a very poor self image

essentially I hate the way I look, I am not happy being in my own body.  I hate that I have allowed my self to gain weight back that I worked so hard last summer to get rid of.  I wish every day that I could be one of those people who loves to run, or is at the gym regularly but then I never make the effort to try and be one of those people. I just look wistfully from afar.

Well now that was fun was it not.  I really do hate that question and never know how to answer it at job interviews. 

Anyway tune back in tomorrow for 5 Strengths (yeah like this one will be any easier)

SlĂ inte,
Kat


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