Definition of Venting: A means of escape or release from confinement; an outlet: give vent to one's anger.
or to express (one's thoughts or feelings, for example), especially forcefully.
I know that I told you all I would spend this weekend getting caught up on my 50 questions series, but this has been on my mind and I have not been able to get around it, so I am going to let it all out, VENT, in hopes that I will walk away with a clearer mind so that I will be able to proceed with out distraction.
I'm hurt, ANGRY, sad and miserable. Hurt because I was promised we'd
always be best friends, No matter what. Promised that I would not be forgotten
and that no one, not even a girlfriend would come between our friendship. Angry because then I got shut; out totally
and completely. We went from speaking
every day for nearly 5 years to nothing, nada, zilch, ZERO. I have been excommunicated,
treated like I never even existed in the first place. I am sad because I lost
one of the best friends I ever had, lost the one who brought clarity to my
random and misshapen thoughts. But I am hurt & miserable more than anything.
Seriously, more than anything. I feel defeated because I tried and was just
shot down and shut out every time when in the end all I wanted was your
friendship. I am happy for you, I want you to have a happy long life even if
that means me not being in it, just as I hope you want the same for me. There
really isn't a lot else to say, I am a bit lost with you. This isn't magically
going to get better overnight, hell it's been a month now and it still hurts
like it was yesterday that you stopped taking my calls. I've put myself out
there only to get rejected, lied to and hurt. If it's important to you like it
is to me then maybe someday you will see the light. If not, then I wish you all
the best, and I mean that with my whole heart, even if it's a broken one.
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