Diet Diary Day 6

Diet Diary, VLCD Day 4

OMG I still am nauseous, I am about ready to toss this diet right out the freaking window.  The urge to snack today on top of the nausea was nearly too much for me.  I spent the day with my cousins and their boys.  I had a really great time, they are so freaking cute.  The hard part was not snacking with they were, spinach and artichoke dip with wheat thin crackers, cheese sticks, yogurt … it was so tempting.  I did not however give in.  I must say am proud of myself for not giving in. *pat self on back* Every other time I have tried to diet in the past I have not had the will power to follow through.  I have always given in to temptation and snacked or outright quit.  I am so torn internally.  I want to lose the weight, I want to be healthy and looking good but I don’t know if I have the will power to follow through and not cheat and I am super sick of not feeling well.  Like I said yesterday I cut out the appetite suppressants and that was not the cause because I am still feeling nauseous.  I think that tomorrow I will do some research into the antibiotic I am taking and see if that has anything to do with it. 

Odd Craving of the Day: that is pretty self-explanatory, everything that was in front of me!  LOL

Sláinte,

Kat

Diet Diary Day 5

Diet Diary, VLCD Day 3

Still not feeling well today, this is really getting old.  I am starting to question the decision to do this diet.  I feel nauseous all day long and am fighting back the need to vomit at random times.   I didn’t take the appetite suppressor today to see if maybe that is what is causing me to not feel good.  End of the day I still feel like crap, so that is not the cause.  I have not got any work done on the basement because I don’t feel like getting off the couch.  I have had a switch in my internal timer.  I am up at 6:30 or 7am every morning and I have not been going back to sleep like I usually would.  I have been watching a lot of Charmed reruns, my mom’s tv channel selection sucks. I really miss my computer and games.  I am dying to play some WoW or Skyrim right about now.  I am not even able to enjoy my time home and relax because I feel sick all the time.  It’s strange being totally disconnected from the world without my computer or the internet.  I also miss Gunner, I hope he is doing well with YaYa. 

Odd Caving of the Day: Kraft Mac and Cheese

Sláinte,

Kat

Diet Diary Day 4

Diet Diary, Day 4

Still fighting the nausea today.  Didn't do much around the house, like I wanted to.  I did take a look a the mess in the basement and my bedroom but there was just so much I felt totally overwhelmed and had no idea where to start.  I really need my mom to let me know how she wants everything laid out so that I can start putting things in assigned places.  Every time I ask she just says "well I just thought you could get me organized you are so good at that."  Yes I am good at it but until I know where/how she wants all the rooms set up I have no starting point!! Ughh moms! anyone else ever want to strange their parents??

So today I had left over roast beef and broccoli for lunch and shrimp with asparagus for dinner.  Again today I did not feel hungry at all during the day but the urge to snack was great.  I went to my cousions house for cards night with the ladies.  We did not actually play cards this week we played a mock game show game.  It was a good time and great to catch up with all the ladies.  It is the same group of girls I hung out with in high school.  The only struggle was the finger foods, everyone always brings something.  there were mini winnies, chips and guacamole and cookies.  I did good though.  I really really wanted some guacamole but I just ate my strawberries and had my propel water (they were drinking margaritas) and stuck to it!! Big pat on the back for me :)

Odd craving today: cinnamon at times I wanted cinnamon toast others with was a Cinnabon.

Sláinte,
Kat

Not feeling well

Day 3: 1st day of Very Low Calorie Diet (VLCD)

So I spent most of today curled up on the couch with mom watching tv because honestly I feel like crap. I have been fighting nausea and a headache all day.  Well the nausea for the last 2 days honestly.  I am a bit worried about what is causing it, it stays the same whether I have just eaten, not yet eaten, or if its been hours since I have eaten.
Anyway the food is good, and I have not felt hungry so that is a positive note.  The bestie came over for dinner again today, we all watched movies in the den and laughed at the dogs while we watched the Oscars.  She brought all 3 of hers over plus my moms.

The Oscars were good, Billy Crystal cracks me up.  Although I must say I was not digging Bradley Cooper with the stach, not a good look for him.  Angelina looked sickly she was so small, and I am pretty sure JLo had some nipple out while she presented.  Sandra looked awesome.  She is one of my favorite actresses.  I loved looking at all the dresses, some were really great, others I wondered what they were thinking.  The ladies from Bridesmaids had me laughing out loud, especially when they faked the drinking game with someone said Scorsese name.

What is this?? Is that supposed to be a rose??
 Not sure here what she was thinking but she missed the mark.

Gwyenth looked great in a tom Fordm

I know a lot of people didn't like it, but I thought she looked very elegant.

Some what ill fitting on top but I think she looks stunning in Marchesa. 

Okay back to diet talk.
I have my phone alarm set to remind my self to take my meds at 7am and 7pm, so far so good.  I have not missed a dose or been late.  I took an appetite suppressor with my am meds and they seem to be working well as I said before I have not yet felt hungry.  I have felt like I wanted more when I was eating but I just drank more water.

Via

I learned in my seminar on Thursday that drinking enough water is vitally important for weight loss for two reasons.

1. It keeps the skin elasticity so when you lose the weight you don't get the saggy skin
2. When fat breaks down in your body it flows through the blood stream, it needs the water to flush it out in the urine other wise it just redeposits its self else where in the body. 
** This is the same for when you are working out, your work out will break down the fat but you MUST drink the water to flush it from your body otherwise you worked for nothing.

I have been drinking 90-120 ounces of water a day.  I know that seems like a lot but I always have a water bottle with me or near me.  I drink when even I feel the need to snack, and for me that is often. That has been my biggest fight so far, not what I have had to give up or the portion control.  It has been controlling the urge to snack, especially since I am not working and just hanging around the house or with the kids while they are snacking all day.

Well that is all for now, hopefully I begin to feel better this nausea is killing me.

Sláinte,
Kat

Saying goodbye to carbs

Day 2: Load Day
So today was my second and last load day. I did not get to have Crandell's for the Fish Fry last night, so Mom, the besite and I went tonight.  I had their world famous broasted chicken, some ribs and mashed potatoes.  It was delicious and a decent good by to cabs, sugar and starches for the time being.

I spent the day hanging out with mom watching tv, cleaning the kitchen and reading. I honestly have not felt 100% and I am not really sure why.  I hope I am not coming down with something again.  I feel as thought I have been in some stage of sick since November!! Its getting a little ridiculous.  

I have decided to start out day 3 (very low calorie diet day 1) by taking the appetite suppressor right from the start.  I am a boredom eater so I really don't want to deal with the issue from that as well as feeling hungry when I know I can't have anything more.

I know this is not going to be easy but I am totally committed.  In the past I had not yet been to the point in my life where I was ready to make the necessary changes/sacrifices to lose the weight and get healthier.  I was not totally unhappy with the way I looked but not willing to work at it enough to change.  I am now!
I am looking forward to:
being healthier in general,  (not getting any younger)
being able to do my work-outs with out dying 1/2 way through,
to not always worrying if I am going to become diabetic,
to liking the image I see of my self in the mirror.
and rubbing it in the face of Typh and his GF is a real added benefit!! I won't deny that :)

Anyway stay tuned in for more progress :)

Sláinte,

Kat

A room with a view...

This is the view out my bedroom window this morning. I miss Texas already. Although knowing I don't have to work in it does allow me to enjoy the beauty of it.
Well here is to day 1: Load day.
I pretty much eat what I want, like before although they actually encourage a high fat intake while I wait for the Releana to get into my system. I am hoping mom and I can do Crandells fish fry for dinner, I love potato pancakes.
Not much else planned for today, just hanging around the house and getting my bags unpacked. Hoping that I kicked the infection, I felt like total crap all evening yesterday.



Sláinte,

Kat

It all starts today ...

Well tomorrow technically.  Tonight I had my initial weigh in as well as the lecture about the program.

Here are the results of my initial weigh in:

Weight: 218.3

Bust: 50 1/2"

Waist: 46”

Hip: 48 1/2”

Neck: 15 1/2”

Thigh: 26 1/2”

Arm: 13 3/4”

59 marbles to move = goal weight 160

Not pretty I know, my BMI was at 41 which puts me in the morbidly obese category.  It was depressing to see/hear.  I have know for years now that I am overweight but I have never been in a place where I was ready to really make the changes necessary.  I gained the weight during my first 2 years of college.  Eventually I was diagnosed with a thyroid disease which is what lead to the weight gain.  Once I got my thyroid issues under control I did not put on more weight but I also have not lost much over the years since.  It is not that I eat badly, I don't I actually eat fairly healthy but I struggle with portion control and snacking.  I am a boredom eater, and I snack when I game ... which is all the time.

Tomorrow I start my load day 1 of 2 along with the spray of Relena two times a day every day for the next 4 weeks.  I only have 2 more days to get in as much of the wonderful Chicago food I love before I have to say good bye to carbs.  I am ready for this as I have finally gotten to a point in my life where I willing to make the sacrifices to get healthy again.  I am sick of not liking the person I see in the mirror, well more so in pictures.  I don't always think I look bad when I look at me, yeah I am overweight but I don't see my self as obese but then I see pictures of my self and I am like "wow am I really that big??"  So here goes all of my savings to try and get healthy again, to a new me a me who likes the person I am in the mirror.

Well here is to healthy life changes!

Sláinte,

Kat

House Hunting Continues

So still looking for a place to live at the end of the month. Its very never racking. I still have no job, and I am guessing no perspectives since I have not heard anything back from the agency about the 3 I already applied for. I am starting to feel a little stressed here!

I have looked at several houses now, with no help from my roommate (thanks so much) and they all seem so very small! I guess maybe my standards are really high as I grew up out in the country in larger country homes. I did live in a duplex in college and an apartment for a while and those did not seem as cramped as some of these "houses" that I looked at this week. I am afraid that I will not have the money for a down payment as I currently have no income and I am quickly going trough my meager savings. 

It is times like right now that I regret leaving my stable job with a possible promotion on the line to move out of state to a place I have never been to just to run away from a boy. But on the flip side (I have to look at the flip side or I will go crazy with "what ifs") I do love the climate down here I have made at least 1 fantastic friend and I did not end up the dreaded "Other woman"! Yeah me!

Okay back to house hunting. I am looking for a place that is pet friendly without a huge monthly pet fee because there is no way I am going to afford that nor will I ever get rid of my baby. A fenced in yard would be amazing! I would like a decent sized kitchen as I love to entertain (when my roommate "allows" it that is) and a large enough bedroom for my desk and such as well. I do spend a lot of time at my computer so I would like to be comfortable while I am at it.

Most of the places I looked at this last week had tiny little kitchens which I guess I have right now but it is breeze way open to the eat in portion of the kitchen as well as the living room. where as these places that I looked at all had small closed off kitchens with the living room being the dinning room as well. That is how my first and last apartment was but the kitchen was open to that entire area not closed off by a faux wall. :( I don't know guess I will just keep looking, more internet research here I come!

Sláinte,

Kat

Missing Iowa

So I went to the bank today to cash in my change jar, being unemployed sucks, and the machine kicked a few coins back at me.

Said coins

After taking a look at them I realized they were tokens from Chuck E Cheese.  I was immediately swamped with memories of work and taking the kids to play games and have pizza.  I don't know who had more fun the kids or the staff.  

 the wonderful ladies of the Hunziker Community

I was melancholy the rest of the day missing what I had for those years.  I really did love working at Beloit I just hated working for LSI and their money centered politics.  They did not put the kids first, at all, and treated their floor staff (the heart of the organization) with a complete lack of respect.

I met my best friends working there. (Miss you guys!!) We always had such a good time both at work and out of it.  It was so hard to see the group of us break apart as working for LSI finally got to be too much for some and they left.  Although many of us moved together to a new organization, we called it Beloit South. 

I miss our Tuesdays at Old Chicago

 dollar slices and world beer tour

Wednesdays at Old Maine, dollar pints!!

all of us crammed into a big booth :)

We had such an amazing comradery together, and we (unlike admin) were there for the kids. 

Well I guess its time to stop reminiscing and get back to work.  All those wonderful coins I deposited today are going to pay my bills, and thanks the a fantastic Steam gift from Xavvov I have a new game to play while I sit at home and wait to see if any of my resume/applications get me a call back.  

Sláinte, 

Kat

Being Unemployed Sucks!!

It really truly does.  I thought I would enjoy a few days off as I have been in some stage of "sick" since November but after just 3 days off I am ready to be working again.  I love my bed and it has taken me no time at all to revert to being a night owl, up till 3 or 4 am and sleeping till 2pm. I have spent a lot of time cleaning the house, trying to mow the lawn, watching tv and playing video games.

I was really excited when my job was extended through February, originally I was scheduled to be done on January 24th but was extended at the start of the month.  It was perfect I would continue working at MiniGrip in Seguin (where I currently live) and that job would end as I moved and I would have almost a month and a half to find a new job in New Braunfels (where I am moving) Perfect right?!?  Wrong! On January 30th my new boss at MiniGrip came in and told me "Well since you are finishing up that project tomorrow with be your last day,  I will be doing something else with the inventory project you were set to start" 

Well Shit! That gave me exactly 33 hours to find a new job!  Hawkins, the temp agency I work for had not been submitting my resume anywhere yet as I still had a month to go on my job for MiniGrip.

A lot of my anxiety has to do with the move I need to make in 3 weeks, and now not having the income to afford it.  I am going to have to ask my parents for money and I HATE that.  I know that everyone is hurting in this economy and my mom has offered to help me out a few times already and I turned her down because it makes me feel like a failure.

Plus to top it all off I have no clue where I am moving too or whom I am moving with.  I have looked at a few houses but they are all very tiny and more expensive than what I am paying for my place right now.  So if anyone knows of a place in the New Braunfels area for rent at about $1000 or less a month please let me know. 

Sláinte,

Kat