Don't get me wrong I am not looking back through rose tinted glasses, okay maybe I do sometimes, but I actually work really hard to remind my self of things that didn't work great so I don't just reminisce on the good times, all the favored memories.
I miss having someone to geek out with, someone who totally understood and "dealt with" my nerd side but embraced it with me fully. I am in the process of using up as much of his Netflix and I can before he remembers I still have the passwords and changes it, so I am getting caught up on all the shows i missed last season as well as all the new Marvel shows on Netflix. I have no one to share it with, no one who will know exactly why i am so righteously upset at a fictional character. Why i get angry when the writers mess things up from the season before, or when a character looses their "it" factor and becomes soft (cough cough Arrow). Someone to just sit with me and, cuddle, and be there with their sly little grin because they find my righteous indignation over a T.V show hilarious and enduring.
I miss my morning kiss on the forehead, and being squazed when you got home.
I miss having you around, even when we were not doing anything at all. I miss the presents of you in the house. You could be in the other room playing video games and me reading or on my computer but I just knew you were there and that made me feel safe and happy. I miss that, that contentment of being in a home with someone you love.
I miss having someone to talk to about my day, I miss listening to you talk about your day. I always enjoyed listening to you talk about your day because I could see the stress melt away from you as you let it all go. I loved that I could be that for you.
I miss having someone to text during the day. I miss having someone text me.
... I miss ... You G
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